More D & M's from Nicole

Every other day, you'll come across another interview where Nicole is opening up about her private life. It makes you realise how incredibly intelligent she is, and how fortunate we are that she shares so much with us. Thank you Nicole, it just goes to show that leaving school early makes no difference. You know, I don't think I've heard of any other actor who is in the papers regularly telling us all their deep and meaningful thoughts. What a cool chick she truly is.

In this latest US interview, Nicole said Sunday has made her "raw and emotional" and she cries when thinking of her three-month-old daughter with husband Keith.
"It's very bittersweet," Kidman said. "Because, at 41, I think, 'I want to see her 21st birthday, and I want to see her get married. My relationship with death used to be far more ambivalent, I think, and now it's very much about staying in the world. That's why in the past I could jump out of planes and take a lot of risks."

Kidman says she becomes emotional when she looks at or thinks about Sunday because this is the baby she thought she might never have. "They are tears of joy, because I suppose I never thought I would get to have it, ," Kidman said. "To have been given it so late in life - I'm so ready for it. And I think giving birth to a child, as a woman, is what we're born to do. I don't mean that to sound sexist, because many women don't get to do it, and I thought I was one of them. But at the same time, if you are given that gift, it's an extraordinary thing."

Kidman and her husband refused to follow the Hollywood trend and sell or release photos of Sunday. It appears the world will have to wait to get a glimpse. "People say, 'Oh, it would be so much easier if you'd just let them get a photo of her.'. And I can't. I'm like, 'I don't want to. I want her to stay out of that'," Kidman said.

The actress also talked about Urban's "terrifying" battle with alcohol and told how their marriage faced a tumultuous test just three months after their 2006 fairytale wedding in Sydney. Urban ended up checking into California's Betty Ford clinic for 90 days.
"You go to hell and back with this - when the addiction takes control of the life, it's terrifying," Kidman said. "But there is hope, and we work on it every day, and we are in a place of actual peace right now, which is a beautiful place."

I can imagine for Nic, maintaining that 'beautiful place' involves not keeping any bottles of Johnny Walker scotch in the house. Not even on a Saturday night!